Back home, it's the night again, and the emoness came back again. Thanks Ting for accompanying me today. Like literally, because she trained to church and trained back home. Love you (:

Had a bad diarrhea this morning. I thought I will be late to get the formal top from Wanxiu. But I still managed to reach church before her haha. Thanks Wanxiu for bathing my daLe! DaLe still needs the sun to dry herself right now. But it's night time, no sun :( I am looking forward to payday because I want to get myself a formal top (: I bought myself a new tag that I can wear it around my neck, no more pinning the usher tag on my top. It was A.R Bernard service today, so the ushers need to dress formally. Wanxiu lent me her top, and Jun lent me her flats. I think today's dressing is super not me. But I don't look too bad on it haha. Jovian said I slimmed down leh! I told him because today's top is not the usual baggy ones (: At least, another step out, and I am proud of myself. *pat pat*

I like the above picture. It's like Wanxiu shared with me during the meeting on Thursday. It was a simple illustration of spiritual walk with God, but yet a straight to the point one :D Once you start jogging, you might have alot of energy to run at a faster pace. Sometimes, you maintain at a consistent one to keep moving. However, you will soon reach a point where you feel tired or exhausted. But! You shouldn't stop. Because once you stop, you need double or even triple more energy to start again. It is very true. I am now still at faltering love with God, quite shaky, but still I am trying to balance it :D

I want to serve again. I want to be on fire. I remembered what LiZhi used to tell me when she was my I/C during ushering. She said, treat every ushering opportunity a chance to outdo yourself compare to previous time. Today I was only a Internal Traffic person. But I stepped out of my comfort zone to greet and direct boldly the congregations towards the flow I am told. I felt so happy when I succeeded. This is just a small act, small achievement, yet it's something to be joyous about :D Thank God!

On fire again. Felt it burning within me. What should I do to keep the fire burning? Hmmm.

I want to take zone on the next usher duty, I will let Wanxiu know about it. I hope I can do it. There's never a right time to anything, it's how you seize that opportunity and grow. The more I think I can't, the more I should do it. Even if I fail and blame myself again, it's just a learning point. Okay, I am back to Ushering :D It is a ministry that will mold me.

I want to get to know my team mates better. So I think I wanna initiate to suggest an outing for the upcoming ones. Lord, give me ideas okay! So I can tell Wanxiu. Okay, jiayou KY! Remember your decisions right now.

I realized I can be 100% myself in Church, although I am not yet like that. But I should try to open up myself even more. Why not? Because Church is the training ground to train people and send them out in the market place to shine for God. Comdemations should not take place in church, instead, encouragement should birth forth. Okay, Lord please enlarge my capacity so that I can love people more and be more patient with everyone! (:

I love guitar! I wanna learn! :D I want to be more zai! :D


A Guitar start! (:

I need a larger capacity to contain more things. I need to learn to love 100%, learn to be patient and learn to be interested in people's life. I wanna stop judging and learn to be forgiving. I need super lots of peace inside of me. I don't want aim too high then drop too hard. Instead, I wanna see the ending line of the molding process.

Testimonies to be shared tomorrow with cellgroup. I always look forward to sharing testimony because I would have a chance to speak up more and conquer this barrier in me. Looking forward! :D

Samsam would be starting to lead Praise and Worship, jiayou sam! :D

I would not be where I am 3 years down the road. Jiayou KY!

Lord, make me strong