I would like to recount my mother's love :D

The memories are so vivid. I remembered I am not a physical touch person (from young I wasn't). My sister has been very loving towards my mum, always hugging and kissing her when she was younger. There was this fine day, where my dad suddenly came to me and asked me to hug my mum, say I love her, and he will treat me to KFC. So what was the outcome? No KFC for me. I am not a person who expresses love by physical touch, but by actions. From young til now, my mum has always been loving. Many a times, words by her can hurt me alot, make me think alot too.

I still remembered when I was just a kindergarten kid. There was once when my mum went to work, and when I came back home realizing she wasn't at home, I cried so badly. My sister complained to my mum about me crying because she wasn't around, and she said 'xiu xiu', means shame shame. Haha! Because she say I am a big girl already.

I still remembered it was Primary 4's April Fool Day, when I had my first period (P/s: This is girl's thing), my mum came to me that morning before school and say, I am a big girl now. Smile to me, and asked my maid to fetch me to school.

I also remembered shouting at her when I was really defiant in the past, that really hurt her alot I know. I've learn to do house chores since young, to help her ease the workload (because act of service is my #1 love language), but right now, I am seldom at home to help her. I guess all these are part of growing up.

Fear gripped me when I see how time passed. In no time, I know it would be my turn to take care of my mum. I am afraid that I will lose my temper, I am afraid that I might give up halfway. I want to spend more time by her side. Can I not grow up? I don't like the idea that I will marry in the future, and I have to leave my mum.

I am not a mushy person, I am not good at words. But my love for my mum has always been at the bottom of my heart, so deep. I really love my mummy.

This year my mum will be celebrating her 50th birthday, and it has past my 18th birthday. Wow, time really flies.

Mummy, Happy Mothers' Day! Hope you would like the present and the card. I will be filial to you, I promise :D

I am supposed to have Bible Study with Shaun today. But because most of them couldn't make it, and I already arrived, Shaun decided to speak to me. There was alot of silent break in between, with him looking at me, and I don't know what to answer.

Shaun, as he is, spoke into my life again. There's alot to be considered. I've failed, but I will stand up and walk again, completing the race. I don't know what the future will be, and how will it be. I am just thankful that I have God.

Eileen & Jessica came to church with me today. Their perspective of a church totally changed. Yeah, My God is awesome you know. I am really proud of every single thing in my church, the band, the vocalist, the ushers, the building, everything! :D

Have faith, restart.