My favorite Quote: Friends are siblings God forgot to give us.

My blog post today is partially inspired by Edward's, check his blog out at my links:D

I love my friends, no matter how things can be busy, we're inseparable. I always can't wait for a sharing session I will have with Yixin or Xueting, sometimes both. I thank God for them, really.

I remembered those times when I gave hope up on friendships, I know many of you out there might have experienced this before, but God didn't give me up. There are many phases of life, where friends come in and out. They don't stay in your heart, they are like people who stay in hotels, they check in, they stay comfortably in your heart for a period of time, eventually, they go.

Mikki was right, I am not a person who is flexible. When i reflect my past, I always blame God when friends left me. However, the time when Yixin & Sam sets in, my heart was already hardened. They are the ones who do things that touched me, but I took it all for granted. My heart was only towards the 2 girls, whom used to be my close sisters, a friendship I know that can never be savoured.

Friends are the ones that stay by your side, in good times and bad times. When I entered Poly, I looked forward in finding fun people, to be friends with them. What I showed them is what I am in front of Yixin & Sam. The difference was, they find it hard to accept me for who I am.

Friends are the ones that treat your house like theirs. I remembered Yixin's mum always scold Yixin for not serving me with drinks, food, etc. But Yixin replied boldly, a friend is someone that can help themselves in your house. It is very true.

I love Yixin and Sam. They longed replaced Denise & Julia. Although I get to know how they are leading their life now, but they are no longer affecting me. I've changed. My heart has changed too. I know I am a person who cannot put down any relationship so easily, but God let me put Denise & Julia down, cherishing what's in front of me, 2 friends that are always there for me.

I had a dispute with Sam recently, but I thank God for that. It's through all these little dispute that our friendship grows and strengthens. Mikki told me this, I should never expect people to know that I am thinking if I didn't tell them. I told Sam this today. We had a chat, although I am the one who is talking all the way. I teared. I felt heartaches. But I thank God for the emotions, because it showed I care, I love and I wanna move this friendship up to the next level. I am happy because I forgave. It is those people that you cared too much the most difficult to forgive, but I did it, because God untangled the wrong emotions knot in me.

God really amazes me. He placed people in and out of my life for a reason. And because of this, the emotional barrier in me had been dissolved, by the grace of God. From now on, I can move on to the next level, binding all the negative thoughts in me, confessing all the positive things, for confession is power, God is almighty.

No longer tied down by setbacks, I am free to move on. The road ahead is a freedom of choice God gave us long ago, but I chose God. I chose Him to lead me. Holy Spirit is a friend that guides & teaches me. When the emotional barrier is untangled, my burden's light. I see hope, I breathe freedom, I feel love. I wanna build genuine friendships all my life. I wanna love people like Jesus do.

Thank you Yixin and Sam. Yixin and I decided that we should correct each other along the way. No matter what, we're still imperfect. But I know I am going to hold on to this verse:

Only true friends will speak the truth the hardest way.

Although friends are siblings God forgot to give, but God turn them into spiritual siblings. The only true friends that I can relate to, are all my church friends, part of my Spiritual family. I thank God for them. Also thanking God for leaders & new friends that God had carefully selected and placed in my life.

I am gonna shine for God.

Lord, let me discern right & wrong.