somehow this year don't seem to be as exciting as those years before. maybe i cannot sense the excitement already. i was wondering why.

my dad got a deduction of 10% in his pay. worse still, there isn't a little bonus for this year. i don't understand his boss. my dad had been slogging in that company for years. if he is able to get a job that gives him the same pay rate now in the market, he will leave the company for sure. but it's not possible. his age is a big problem, now economic recession is the bigger problem. i cannot work now, i have to study for my exams, i cannot manage 2 things at one time. im afterall a full time student. you can say im useless for not being able to multi-task. the company is not doing well, it will just end like this anytime. Pastor says we're recession proof, i will just keep praying for my family. because my dad is the only breadwinner of the household.

busy with school work. busy with church. busy with outside world. i didnt help out much in the spring cleaning. my mum and dad pulled them together. they shop, i did accompanied them. they clean the house, i did help a little by tidying the clothes and clear my room.

reunion dinner was like any other dinner everyday. there's not a little difference. maybe there is a difference in the dishes. i dont know. although our family always eat dinner together, but always during new year eve, there's this special feeling. i wonder why isnt there any this year, or rather, just now? could it be because we're of a different belief?

will it be a happy new year? i just want to spend this year simple. this is only my wish, nothing to deteriorate my feelings and the happening. with God, He can cheer me up :D

there's nothing i can do, except to keep praying, keep praying.

P.U.S.H - Pray Until Something Happens

there's this one thing that touched me very deeply, i dont know how to express it out as usual. as usual, as any other parents will do, to give their children their ya sui money in a red packet. my mum handed me and my sister one each. she said because of my family's financial problems, my dad only can give us this amount. but my mum says she added some more in it, asked us not to let our dad know. when my sister open the red packet. it is twice the amt my dad gave. my mum actually gave 1x more. this is.. really.. inexpressible. im really.. touched.

i just hope this year will be simple yet happy.

Lord, you can make a difference