while downloading the rationale software for econs homework, i thought i can just post a short one today :D
looking at others, how others achieved good grades make me doubt about myself. i know for what i reap i shall sow. i wanna put in hard work in my studies, because i know my own ability that needs to work harder than anyone else. doesn't mean im stupid, it just means that im a slower learner, that's all. swallowing the facts - im a slow learner is hard. perhaps because i always think too highly about myself. always a perfectionist, wanting to do my utmost best in areas im entrusted to. i wanna be like mary, indulging myself into the presence of God & not the earthly matters. no matter what, im a minister in my school, God's purpose in my life is so much greater than those tiny weeny exams coming up. i thank mikki for praying for me yesterday upon hearing of my CRS exam today. she taught me how to plan for exams, teaching me to draft topics out & always notice that there's time for everything "one thing one time" she always says. yes, i should not panic. i will do my best & God will do the rest. i have God to rely on. God is always my first source. Lord, teach me in your ways.
im glad i took the effort, the first step to contact my stats tutor & be honest with her. since the change of lecturer, i havent been coping well with stats. looked thru the topics tested for mst this coming week8, 3 topics i have to work hard. meeting veronica tomorrow, i hope everything will turn out fine. she just have to give me a rough idea, i will do the textbook myself. Lord, be my wisdom to absorb everything details that is important tomorrow.
CRS is finally over! it was awesome. one negative comment about structuring from Chris, our tutor, about my article & opinion. yes, it was rather messy when i try to throw everything out too fast due to time constrain. he said that i have a strong evidence to backup myself, i thank God for that because i was trying to fix pieces of evidence from everywhere :D also more positive comments which i only remember vividly. i should start reading the papers everything, since im fortunate that Today is issued free in my area.
i thought we really need to buck up for CD. this time around, our group did not really present our utmost best to the class & tutors. i will work hard to be more part of the group upon the next project work, if we are given. looking forward to FOM PBL2 because we dont have mst before the 3weeks break.
this week is seriously packed up. meeting jazz badi tomorrow to discuss about the flow of the performance during 23rd nov. i hope PassioNaliseD can do our best :D we will improve slowly but gradually. im glad that sam shares problems with us now. we're building a friendship that last. i thank God for them in my life, xin & sam. we chatted about the past, where they say im very emo! i went to my previous blog (you can find them on the archive) & really noticed something too severe out of me. but my walk with God now is improving, everyday, i will be out of the emo syndrome. i cant wait for weekends! :D
friends, do keep me in prayer, thanks :D
Lord, dont take this hectic life away from me, instead, walk with me thru the valleys. i want to experience more of you, be my guidance, strength, determination & wisdom.