moodswing for a week, i guess it's more or less over. i went to church today, for service. having only able to go for alternate weeks, i lied to my parents that i need to rush on my project work & rushed out of my house. gomenasai for lying, but i really need the tangible of God's presence. moodswinging has been suffocating me for this week, i cannot take it anymore. i teared when i sang the worship song. i apologise if i were to give a stern face initially, really hasn't gotten any mood.

Lord wiped my tears today :D im strong, on my feet once again.

i pledged an amount i needed faith. although it is not much an amount overall. but yes, unequal amount of money, equal amount of sacrifices. i will try my best to first fulfil the pledge amount, then try to add more if i have the money. im working soon, i hope i can save more this time. need to shop for christmas present le! :D i cant wait. this year is ending in no time, i wanna end it very well, start next year well too!

im glad that i spoke to rolling once again. it has been so long, since we chatted that much. went to find shaun, learn alot of things, yea he is somemore that can relate well :D i realised that i still very much appreciate mikki! so i smsed her randomly.

learn things about lapis erzi from mikki. perhaps things that i assumed was well going. things that i didn't bother to learn about. but when mikki was the one who told me, i felt so down. he is my erzi & yet someone else told me about it. im sorry, i havent been a good mummy. i promise i will cherish you even more this time. although i know you for a very short while, but time isn't a factor to keep relationship going. im certain, i love my maple family. my savage erzi, lapis erzi & xuexue nuer. i will pray that they will be saved one day :D




yixin was duper hungry cos she didnt let us know that she didnt have cash for dinner == so i reprimanded her & bring her to my house for "dinner" i dont have rice cooked in the cooker, the most i can do, was to help her cook noodle. so she chose instant curry noodle == & wanted 2 packets of it. the bible says there's always a season for everything, this is her season of FOOD! ahh deyy! she really eat alot. 2 packets of noodle with 2 eggs! ohmytian! D: she really finished it!

going to lapis erzi's birthday BBQ tomorrow. i felt so warm inside. i love my spiritual family alot. so much so much, i cannot explain how is this feeling.

jane passed me a card today, was really touched. will reply you de, wait for my replies! :D

Lord, pick me up again.