yesyes! this song suits me now. i'll be fine. my mood is swinging so badly these few days. im working tomorrow! the thought didn't give any excitement at all. i know i will be dragging my feet to work tomorrow. i just hope i will do fine.

today attended CG at Sherrie's house. Shaun preached because Mikki was really sickly. really impacted me. because W473 aren't united at all. i still like the unity in W426 & yes, i missed them alot. i still wanna attend their CGM even though i know that i am still an extra one inside. perhaps that also explains why i didn't step in when i went to look for xin & sam. how can W473 be united? i didn't even have the sense of belonging, im sorry to say that. it's my spiritual family & it's the place God placed me in. i must learn how to grow in there. perhaps this period of ups & downs, we're able to grow. i know if we overcome this, we'll get stronger. Mikki is struggling alone, the CGC suffered because the members are not united. i dont know. i dont like this. i see Mikki's effort & i greatly appreciate it. i want to help her, but i dont know how. the CGCs are doing their best. i know they are dead beat too. but somehow the effort is not enough. Lord, i pray & lift W473 into your hands that we're gonna experience another revelation & that our cellgroup will grow & multiply just like W426 in the past. amen :D

bowen left me tag, thanks dude :D i like what he used to encourage me as well.

3 And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance;
4 and perseverance, character; and character, hope.
5 Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

-Romans 5:3-5 NKJV

thanks. i wanna equip myself with the word of God too. so from today onward, i wanna discipline myself to read the bible everyday, as much as i can. i wanna start writing about my spiritual life as well, to Mikki, like what she suggest :D hopefully, i can grow much stronger.

the lyrics keep appearing. because im having moodswing these few days, i kept listening to the song, i'll be fine. the part "什么时候 I'll be fine~" kept popping in my head, keep repeating. im asking God, when will i be fine? i will be, i will be! soon :D

tomorrow another working day, brand new start of a week. school starting soon. in another 2 more weeks time? since it's sunday today. i dont know if im ready to face my classmates. but i know i will be strong :D i have God's strength in me! you see it & feel it too! haha :D

Lord, buck me up, embrace me. because i need you more & more each day. give me confidence because i have faith.