aright! at least im feeling better now :D kudos to Jesus! haha. i felt His presence so strong today! firstly i wanna shared what i was fed this evening when i went to work by Jolin! thanks girl, it's really being appreciated alot alot! deep in my heart. she shared this story:

Four Fishermen Called as Disciples

1 So it was, as the multitude pressed about Him to hear the word of God, that He stood by the Lake of Gennesaret, 2 and saw two boats standing by the lake; but the fishermen had gone from them and were washing their nets. 3 Then He got into one of the boats, which was Simon’s, and asked him to put out a little from the land. And He sat down and taught the multitudes from the boat.
4 When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.”
5 But Simon answered and said to Him, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net.” 6 And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking. 7 So they signaled to their partners in the other boat to come and help them. And they came and filled both the boats, so that they began to sink. 8 When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, “Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!”
9 For he and all who were with him were astonished at the catch of fish which they had taken; 10 and so also were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, who were partners with Simon. And Jesus said to Simon, “Do not be afraid. From now on you will catch men.” 11 So when they had brought their boats to land, they forsook all and followed Him.

- Luke 5: 1-11 NKJV

yes i understand what it truly meant le. although i learned about this story before but now i understand how it can apply into my situation. i thought of quitting the job, but what if Jesus choose me and stepped into my situation? i will listen to Him & make a few more calls. just now when i was about to cease calling, because im really so exhausted i got an appointment! Praise the Lord! and this is one potential one, because that guy is looking for savings plans to invest on, therefore, when Lord bless you, He shower His blessings. i love this way, my life is beginning to change le. Lord i thank you :D

on the train, thru & fro, i kept Mikki's word unto my mind, do not put emotions into the things you do. yes, im still applying, im still learning. but today is a great demostration, because i know that im just going down to make calls, i shouldn't let emotions control my attitude. even if they are not gonna be one potential customer that i might have, but they still deserve the best attitude i can give, right? i learn to speak slower & more fluently, i thank Lord for that. therefore since im already numbed to rejections, i know that i can get past those jerks or bitches if i ever would talk to them on the line. there's nothing i cannot overcome, i just need time & Lord's strength. i will work hard, i will jiayou because i will always bear this in mind; i want to be a blessing to my consultant than a cursing. i believe God place each other into each other's life for a reason, a reason untold & a reason yet to be understood, but i will use Karen as a motivator, i can do it! :D

these few days morning call matthew. a new friend i just made. same church but didnt meet before. a talkative chap, sometimes im lazy to entertain him. but since he needs help in waking up early in the morning because he sleep so late in the night, i thought i shall be the nice person bah. hahaha! D:

today im happy because firstly, i worked for 4 hours but only uses 1 packet of tissue! omg! finally. haha :D im getting better, after chasing my nose for so long, y nose finally got tired & therefore i got hold of it. muahaha! :D secondly, Karen was here today! we walked to the train together because she went to meet her friend elsewhere. got to talk to her after 2 weeks? whoa! but i thank Lord for the short fellowship. she said, i can let her know if im stressed up. thanks dude! :D

i hope tomorrow will be fine! going to work with Damien tomorrow! a new friend too :D meeting huiming too! hope jolin will be in office tomorrow too! ohyah! pencil coming too! i dont know her name so calling her pencil. i need social life! thanks Lord. bless tomorrow a fruitful one. you turn impossibles into possibles. i have faith, still :D

Lord, thanks for everything today! bless Mikki & tomorrow! amen!