// An-ge-line.


God's child, CHC W426 & W473 spells love. Formerly from Greenridge Primary, Chua Chu Kang Secondary, and currently in Singapore Polytechnic, class of DBA14 in the year of 2009/10. Celebrates growth every 10th day of February, 'm eighteen this year. A'dores music and singing and sports like netball. Contact yours truly at funkyhotshot69@hotmail.com

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1) To grow spiritually stronger
2) W426& W473 to grow stronger
3) PassioNaliseD
4) Pastor Kong& family
5) Financial Breakthrough
6) Family's Salvation

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[ Mood | emo ]
[ Listening to | I think of You - Tata Young ]

i think if you're gonna slap me right now, i won't do anything to retaliate. because im too emo to do anything to you. i hate emoness but yes, im emo right now. scram off before i shout at you & do anything regretful.

met with iggy kor & xin in the afternoon to send xin's lappy to RP for repair. first time stepped into RP & the impression i have in mind is "high tech" perhaps because it's newly built. the scenery is nice with alot of waterfall. the library was conducive for all i suppose. i like the way the library is built because for every seat, there's a lamp & a plug. this is to cater to all in RP because other than lappy itself, they use nothing else for studies. kudos to that. rushed off at 230pm because my work starts at 4pm.

warning: emo post :(
i went to work alone once again. i hate loneliness but i couldn't blame others because i chose to work that far as a telemarketer at tanjong pagar. im so glad that my handphone was with me, not letting my ears run out of music. i try to stay cheerful but the journey was too long to do so. from woodlands to jurong east, from jurong east to tanjong pagar, it can kill me. stepped into Fuji Xerox building, that's when i started to put on a smile, thinking that i can finally indulge myself with phone calls. however, things did not turn out as expected. too many seats being occupied, alot of people in the office. i stood there like a fool, just to find a place quickly settle down. i went to the exact seat i sat yesterday. & to my "amaze" when i found that i do not have a phone infront of me that is available. i dont look like a fool because certainly im one. anyway, i thank Lord for placing strength & confidence in me because im able to brace up & start to make a few phone calls. after which, the thought of my consultant gave me the motivation to go on. having a target in mind, although i didn't hit any appointments today but i managed to dail111 & reach60. this is an improvement from yesterday. i didn't socialise because nobody seemed friendly to me. from 4pm to 730pm i was facing the wall. decided to go off 30 mins earlier because i had nobody to accompany for my 30mins break in between. xin & iggy kor couldn't meet me up cause kor had to reach home at 8pm, it was then i really burst out crying. it wasn't their fault, but it was i the one who could not hold back my tears. i was really looking forward to see them, at least someone accompany me for my late dinner when i reach panjang, but nope.

i emo when i was walking down the pathway to the mrt. names appear in my head. kai? since he stays at tanjong pagar, but nope because we just quarreled & it will be awkward if i were to meet him again. Darren? nope, because he just met me yesterday, it will be too much if i ask him out again. jer mummy? she talked to me earlier but nope because she stays at yishun & it's quite a distance for her to meet me. xin? i smsed her again but nope, since she's starting school tomorrow & she's already on her way home. last resort, my sister, but nope because she was with her friend. am i such a useless friend to the extent that im not worth even a meal to be accompanied for? i just want an accompanied meal, is it too much to ask? who can i ask? i teared in train lah, so paiseh but i couldn't control it, what to do? i went to 7-11 to pack rice. i bought 2 chocolate bars because whenever im really down, i will spam chocolate down my throat. wanted to sit at playground to have my dinner but i forgot to take a plastic spoon therefore i have to go home & eat it.

Lord, heal me. heal this stupid wound that is inside of me. tell me that i ain't useless, that it is only such a coincidence that everyone is not free. they want to accompany me but they are not free. but are they?

i was really at the verge of kneeling down & burst into tears when i dropped my laptop on the lrt for the first time. my laptop, for 6months it haven't kissed the ground but today it did! it really make my blood boils. the damn freaking squeezy lrt. damn it.

Lord, i think of you whenever im down. im glad that you stopped me from cursing when things didn't turn out right. let me calm down. take away that emptiness inside of me. tomorrow im going back to your house for praise & worship, please make it a meaningful one. make work tomorrow a lively one. Lord, let me sleep peacefully. take the emoness away from me. amen (: