alright. im updating my blog in the office. yes! at Fuji Xerox building. 3 appointments for the week so far. i hope i can work harder, more potential appointment for me. sam is fortunate to have Ruxin that pays her appointment rate as well, i hope i can earn that much too! or perhaps another job for me which has a higher pay rate? anyone has it? please let me know okayys :D im in need of cash now, dont ask why, just bear in mind. thanks :D i worked 7hours today, from 1pm-8pm. 131 dials with no appointment. i shall not lose heart, for i believe God is great! new friends today! one new couple worked in the morning & Roy who is a friend of Jolin. jiayou everyone!

anyway, you dont have to bother about me. dont have to feel helpless, dont have to feel hurt seeing me this way, dont have to believe that i will come to you. for im fine as im. im just in need of cash, im going insane over it. i just need to work hard. all your concerns are not being brought part of my life, which means i can live without. you know how stubborn im, no one can persuade me out of the things i've set in mind. dont bother, seriously. i want a person i can depend on, but from the beginning til now, i cant bring myself to be dependent on you. no matter how hard i try, i just always have to be stronger, to be braver. but if i can do that, why do i still need you in my life? i need someone to be my support, perhaps the problems lie in me, but still, i thought i would need to protect you more than you protecting me. thanks for everything.

anyway, i've been munching on Guavas nowadays! which means that i have been consuming it too often. im beginning to fall in love with Fruits! therefore my healthy lifestyle is back! no worries about surviving on just bread everyday for work, im doing perfectly fine with that. today im happy because i had proper meal! despite of me working til 9plus. but i ate cheesecake! D: which is FATTY lah! -.- aiyah, long time one time lah hor haha! jiayou KY! bread is healthy! :D

Lord, lead me into a life filled with you. buck up my courage, speak to me. for i need you more than anything else :D