[ Mood | Excited ]
[ Listening to | Tongue Tied ]
alright, i shall post now. before ting & xin arrive. they are coming to my house to ton again, this time's purpose is to coach ting in her E maths. dont fall asleep girl alright! let's move by faith, i shall teach by faith & you shall be strengthened by faith too (: all the best.
anw my sister was damn funny just now. she just reached home & went to sit infront of the desktop. cos im using lappy ma. she chatted with me with a blank screen infront of her. finally she complain to me, "this com needs one hour to startup leh" & she went impatient. i was like nodding my head & she coontinued, "haha. i didn't turn it on" & she burst out laughing. so diaos can? -.-
anw, i went to alina's blog just now. i read her post. im glad that she's looking upon God again. i like this paragraph that she wrote. because it strucked me as well.
i seek love, form people. it doesnt last , not at all.
i seek acceptance from people with what i do, it only turns me further away form my true self..
i try ot be different to be accepted. it only makes me feel emptier.
i listen to my thoughts, i only get ruined in the end.
i focus on my work, hoping it would distract me from my thoughts, it does, but the main problem still lays there untouched at the end of the day.
my life aint balanced now. and my body is showing signs of that
warnings perhaps?
that my life aint in order rite now.
its proper to keep my life in line with God.
it will only SET ME FREE.
i have to be myself. in order to set myself free, look upon God & show the rest who i really am. im not paid to entertain anybody. servanthood doesn't mean im faraway from being myself. i serve God's people (in this case, everyone is) but not to the extent they can trample me. im just the way i am. cheers for that. & alina! your angmo very good can! LOL!
chatted with Darren over the phone yesterday night for 5hours? i think his bill really going burst this month -.- we chatted alot of things. perhaps, it is time for me to step out of my comfort zone too. no more expectation, he is just as fine as he is. i remember xin says this. if a guy wants to change for a girl, he will do it himself, beyond what he thought he could achieve. but if a guy need to change for a girl, you will see some changes, adding procrastination of course. so it is time for me to relax the grip, to let go. if i can accept for who he is initially, he will be like this in my heart. no matter what happens, jiayou Darren (:
went to cellgroup today, im so so glad to see everyone there, perhaps almost eveyone. im glad to see mikki, jazz & shenny esp. miss them tons & tons. alina! it's time for you to come back too! misses! haha (: thanks jazz BADI & shenny sweety for the kitkat! it's time for us to break and fellowship together too! i like mikki's attitude! she will serve & humble herself. although she's a cellgroup leader, yet she do visitation. she cooked for us today. thanks a lot mikki! you're my role model now! haha :D
awaiting for the girls to arrive. Lord, i just pray that you'll pour wisdom & knowledge upon me that i would know what to teach, how to teach. pour determination upon ting, as she know what to do, how to do. let's all leave our lethargicness onto ur hands Lord, exchange us a determined heart! amen (: