how should i feel? i could no longer guide my feelings. what is of him? expectations always comes in. if you can love someone initially just because of who he/she is, then why expectations along the way? claiming for them to change for the better? to think it deep, it's for your own self-centered desire. why cant anyone just be who they are? if you claim to love them, you should love their all, including their weakest point. easier said than done? you bet, therefore practice makes perfect (:

yes i still love him. sorry for the random answer to his questions after some time. but to see his pessimistic all over again, it leaves me helpless, what can i do? why must he improve so much? why cant i walk with him through all these things? why cant we be back together again? is it because we're easily distracted? i dont know. i want an answer. many a times, i wanted to say, i want to be back with you my love. is that a right move?

im working soon. somehow i wished that we'll work together again. so that we will have much more memories. not just those limited ones. but his answers aren't what i expected.expectations again. no matter how hard i dream of us, it will never be reality. call me a useless one then, im much useless than you, darren.

what's wrong of being alone nowadays? it set me thinking, let me see the part of world i would never see it if im too involved into something. who says music is emo? you gonna stand in my shoes and see, before judging me and comment about me being me, myself & i.

learn to love and not to hate.

some happy things for today!

kudos to group 2! our ca3 for ideas finally complete! this time that bastard tutor of dba 06 learnt to balance his questions out for all groups except 06's last group. all thanks to jerry, our team leader that he managed to silent everyone with his strong answers to all stupid questions. like usual, anthony always say, defend your own product. dba06's presentation is too our of place. it's really being too absurb. they are simply going nowhere, no zbrush model involved. must be that kuku tutor of theirs plays that stupid role not getting across the instructions clearly. not entirely their fault though. but finally, it's over! thanks a million bunch jerry! he was really on fire today! this group couldn't live without him! from his sacrifices during his birthday til now, everyone can see his effort. sometimes leave me effortless behind, wondering what i could really help. but, you're the best leader i've ever seen! jiayou! our CD module next sem will be a great one too! because we're gonna be in the same group again.

lord, thanks for giving me strength, determination, and wisdom. this coming mst, im depending on you. you gonna bless me! i will do my best, & god will do the rest!