today's post might be a long one;
yesterday i finally went to polyclinic to see doctor;
i went alone early in the morning;
kinda boliao so decided to take my reflection;
it was around 730am bahs;

i reached the clinic at around 755am having the thought that;
people are queuing up & the clinic opens at 8am sharp;
however, to my surprise, there's already long queue & people started registration;
no more nurses at the counter attending to us;
we had to register ourselves using machines;
i was the 105th patient with the number 2105;
brought my laptop with me so that i could use it to kill time;
currently chasing the show 命中注定我爱你;
it is really a good show luh!
touched me til i shed to much tears;
made me laugh til i had countless of tummy ache;
it rawks! i would recommend it! if you have the time;
doctor prescribe 5 medicine for me at the cost of 7.8bucks in total;
i was blessed as my mum paid it for me;
Lord, i will learn to take care of myself;
woots! coming back to the house of god!
to renew my walk with the lord;
i bought a new sermon notebook!
the pages is filled with colors;
& im determined to fill it up asap!
not missing any services & cg meetings;
when i have faith & vision, god provides the provision;
& i strongly believe in that!
im gonna read more of god's words;
so that it can be my light & guide whenever i need it;

so kawaii eh!
im so determined to fill it up!
lord, bless me with determination!
rested for 2 hours before meeting mikki for bible study;
thanks mikki for giving me bible study;
this time i was really attentive;
although im still repeating the first chapter for the third time;
i felt blessed as i recall & giving it deeper thoughts;
i thought i grew up too;
God's plan for salvation (bs chapter one);
God creates the world & he is worthy to receive;
- glory (all praise)
- honour (all respect & reverence)
- power (all dominion)
- the refuse to glorify god or worship him as king
- they become unthankful for all his daily care
- men became corrupted in their thoughts
- men foolish hearts were darkened
- deceitful above all things
- desperately wicked
there are two type of sins;
- commission (bad things we do)
- omission (thing we were to do, yet we did not)
sin brought upon all man one tragedy - death;
three kinds of death a sinner faces;
- spiritual death; inner separation from god
- physical death; outward sickness and eventual dying
- eternal death; banishment from the presence of god
& three facts that you must admit are;
Jesus was pinned on the cross & was crucified;
Jesus was buried;
& Jesus was rose on the third day;
because he is alive, he is able to save us completely by;
- forgiving our sins (past)
- renewing our minds (past)
- healing our emotions (present)
- healing our bodies (present)
- breaking the curse of failure and defeat (future)
- prospering our lives (future)
- repentance
- remission
- salvation
it was about overcoming disappointments;
忍
endure
endure
often when you are overwhelmed by disappointments;
you tend you endure, by keeping it into your heart;
you thought that things might get better as time pass;
but you didn't know you're not getting things on the better track;
mike said about the chinese character of endure;
a knife over your heart;
it is painful, isn't it?
why must you do this to yourself?
instead if placing a knife right into your heart, isn't there a better solution?
things that you shouldn't do when you're disappointed or hurt!
& im glad that mikki prayed for me during the cell group today;
i kept sheding tears whenever i hear the word of god;
how i reflected it in my life;
the situation im facing;
how am i going to deal with it;
i just need the strength and determination of the lord;
dealing with emotional wounds and inner vows (by mikki charris);
your past affects your present attitude;
deep within our soul, we all carry our inner child of the past;
disfunctional families caused us to repeat their attitudes;
posting now up to 2 hours le;
good exercise for my brain too!
im recalling and thinking as i am typing;
i haven do my pacc homework;
suddenly feel like doing it;
perhaps im doing it soon!
Lord, lend me your energy!
let me be the salt and light of the earth!
let me stand by you when faith & fear collides!
let me love you more each day!
let me be so close to you again!
Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
more sermons up i promised;
im learning, like the way you want me to;
also, i need you to guide me along the path;
life is always full of ups and downs;
but when im hurt, i shall confess to you;
& you shall heal my broken heart;
exchange my bloody heart for your humble heart, lord;
bless me with a determined tomorrow;
set me on fire like never before;
invent a fuel that will last eternally;
& i shall use it to keep my fire burning :D
you rawks!
i stone;
with love;
yimyim
you tend you endure, by keeping it into your heart;
you thought that things might get better as time pass;
but you didn't know you're not getting things on the better track;
mike said about the chinese character of endure;
a knife over your heart;
it is painful, isn't it?
why must you do this to yourself?
instead if placing a knife right into your heart, isn't there a better solution?
things that you shouldn't do when you're disappointed or hurt!
- fellowship with another disapponted person
- not recognising by what god is doing, shut down your heart to god
- draw away from god to somewhere you think you'll feel better
- come into the presence of god
- face the reality of what has happened;
- be honest how you feel & how you reacted
- he will forgive! therefore forgive the people who hurt you
- refocus your attention on the lord
& im glad that mikki prayed for me during the cell group today;
i kept sheding tears whenever i hear the word of god;
how i reflected it in my life;
the situation im facing;
how am i going to deal with it;
i just need the strength and determination of the lord;
dealing with emotional wounds and inner vows (by mikki charris);
your past affects your present attitude;
deep within our soul, we all carry our inner child of the past;
disfunctional families caused us to repeat their attitudes;
- learnt behavior (e.g. anger, selfishness)
- bitter root judgement
- emotional wounds from childhood
- inner vows
- confess that you have a problem
- forgive those who had hurt you
- ask god to forgive you for holding on resentment towards people
- release all your hurt to the lord, jesus
- receive healing from jesus
- reconcile whenever possible
- meet restitution
posting now up to 2 hours le;
good exercise for my brain too!
im recalling and thinking as i am typing;
i haven do my pacc homework;
suddenly feel like doing it;
perhaps im doing it soon!
Lord, lend me your energy!
let me be the salt and light of the earth!
let me stand by you when faith & fear collides!
let me love you more each day!
let me be so close to you again!
Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
more sermons up i promised;
im learning, like the way you want me to;
also, i need you to guide me along the path;
life is always full of ups and downs;
but when im hurt, i shall confess to you;
& you shall heal my broken heart;
exchange my bloody heart for your humble heart, lord;
bless me with a determined tomorrow;
set me on fire like never before;
invent a fuel that will last eternally;
& i shall use it to keep my fire burning :D
you rawks!
i stone;
with love;
yimyim