service was great!
but im too exhausted to post the sermon up;
other day perhaps;

today's sermon is about hurt & disappointment;
i received altar call again today;
tears are flowing like no one else's business;
my spiritual mind has been renewed;
though i wont deny that my heart is still quite hardened;
i do feel at some point of time, touched by the lord;
im walking down the right path with him this time;
slowly, gradually & eventually;
i aspire to be a more spiritually mature person;
three people i wanna thank the most today;

to rolling laogong:
though i know that it was kinda awkward initially to break the wall of no communications;
although i felt left out when everyone has their own friends to talk with;
i felt so loved when you smiled & directed me down to receive altar call once again;
the smile, the assurance & the hug was everything i needed;
it made me strong again, knowing that days in the new cg would be a challenge as well;
thanks for the fellowship too!
& im looking forward to see your family tomorrow too!
be strong girl, rest well & see you tomorrow;

to mikki charris;
i know it is hard for me to look upon you as a cgl instead of a friend;
i know there should also be a line for formality & informality;
but still i wanna say, thank you so much for being there for me;
that you've not given up hope on me;
& still contacts me, though i kept rejecting to attend cg or services;
im a changed person right now;
i dont know this time around, how strong the fire can keep burning;
i dont know how long my determination can last;
i dont know how much energy i have for the lord before it dies off again;
i wont deny that even Christians' life has ups & downs;
but thank you for being there;
for your effort in helping me for alot of things;
shaun says we should choose our own friends;
& if you dont 嫌弃 me as a friend, i would like to appoint you as a new friend in my life;
cheers & all the best alright! :D
you have my support always!

to shaun;
although you're no longer my cgl;
i felt even more happy, more relief;
i used to treat you as a cgl & a guy that i could not even speak to;
i used to picture that you're fierce & unfriendly to speak to;
but you proved me wrong that night as you advised me on which path i should manoeuvre to;
im now so happy that i gained a friendly, advicable friend;
rather than a fierce & strict cgl!
i hope im also a friend to you too!
im gonna do my best from today onward as a new christian;
& you gonna do your best in directing w426!
im gona miss you & you must miss me too alright!
take care always! & stay as sweet as you can to your gf! :D

woots!
ky is finally back to the house of god;
im back, though it seemed like a dream;
i will learn not to talk the talk, but to walk the talk;
you know actions always speaks louder than words;
that's what i always believe;
i dont want to be just a weekend christian!
im gonna jiayou in my life now!
tesimonials to share tomorrow!
i just hope im able to speak up & people are able to understand;
im trying my best to adjust into a different environment;
all the best! w473! way to go! :D

dear Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
my life will no longer be the same;
you gonna bless me with everything!
i do not need income!
im gonna save & believe in you!
lord, do a miracle for me alright;
in any areas i need you;
you rawks!
i stone;

with love;
yimyim