im blogging again;
but my mood ain't good;
cos it is swinging;
firstly, i ain't sure what is the next step;
sure, i did gave up my job for the house of god;
earthly possessions such as monetary ain't that valuable in my life compared to the lord;
but things did not went so smoothly;
my parents told us that my dad may lose his job;
& perhaps i do need a financial breakthrough in my family;
because i dont want to start worrying about money again;
& neglect lord again;
i seriously hope i can pull through 3 years in poly;
perhaps then i would start working with the diploma i have;
& help my sister finish part of her education;
whether or not, i can make it to university;
perhaps at this point of time, it doesn't matter already bahs;
able to fulfill our stomach, perhaps is already a joy;
im relying onto the lord for financial help;
although money ain't important;
but it is a need for us to survive on earth before meeting lord in heaven;
let me tide through this period lord;
let me at least accomplish my tertiary education at poly;
i will work hard, i will score well;
at least, that's the thing i promise i will try my best;

did pacc ca2 past year paper from the blackboard;
the next move for revising is to drill the format into my head;
so that during exam i would know what to do;
but the only thing im lacking now is practices;
not because i dont wanna practice;
but because there ain't much question for me to do so;
practice makes perfect;
i need to get a source for practices;
lord, aid me in that;
so that i ain't spending my money unnecessarily;

idea, pacc, econs, stats;
im crazy over exams after exams;
i just know that i need to do well;
i cant afford to fail any or merely just scrape through;
i need a break at times too;
to balance out my life;
therefore im catching shows!
i hope there's enough shows for me to watch luh;

with the strength of the lord, i can do it;
ky is always strong with the lord;

jerry accompanied me trained home today;
& was really so glad that he is there;
at least someone to accompany me after school til home;
yc, jas, me & jerry all stays at panjang area;
what a coincidence!
& his sister got into the came cabin, same timing by the same door;
so qiao can;
this is call fate mahs!

lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
bless me with determination;
& reduce procrastination;
i need you badly now;
holy spirit, please guide me;
take all worries and troubles away from me;
you gonna see how i shine;
you rawks;
i stone;

with love;
yimyim