woots!
finally a next post i can post up;
3 posts yesterday, since it's past 12 now;
im living for God;

2 major decisions i made;
i wanna post it out;
because as usual, im truthful to my blog;
& its also the only place people can read about my true feeling;
to a extend if i can express it out;

firstly, im leaving already;
im working at NUTC fairprice BPJ until end of this month;
ks asked me to stay for 2 more months for the bonus that i can receive;
i won't deny that i would very much like to receive more money;
to think twice, money is earthly possessions;
i would receive much more in heaven, why must i bother?
God can give me more folds than wad i give him;
so what is the small money that i could receive if i stay;
there won't be anymore ending;
because after august, the next rebates coming & after that would be the cny bonus;
so that means i mus stay til i receive them all?
that is impossible! LOL;
im leaving, that's my final say;
a lil sacrifice for Lord, its nothing;
i asked myself, what is there isn't anymore income;
im still spending, cos i need to keep myself alive too;
all i can do is to save & have faith;
Lord, im counting on you;
i've let go of a hard & sudden decision, but i know;
you could give me something greater;
& im looking forward to that;

secondly, i wanna announce;
mr & mrs xiaoqiang will be ending on 14th june 2008;
yupps, that's it;
he may be the right man im looking for;
amongst all things, communication with him is what i cherished most;
& its the most important tool;
we may have heartaches;
we may cry;
we may be sad;
but if the time is not right;
relationship cant stay;
relationship cant grow;
we gave each other one year's grace;
during this one year;
we must be spiritually stronger than what we are today;
i do hope there are also positive changes in him;
because change is the only constant in live;
meanwhile, no work, no relationships;
only studies & God;
i hope i can cope well too;
Lord, another decision i made for you;
i know when one door is close;
the other will open;
& that door will contain you;
because i love you more than anything else;

des was the first to speak to me when he saw changes in my msn nick
thanks des;
you must jiayou yourself too;
make a step of faith & confess too!
you can do it;
have confidence ^^

i took 2 steps of faith;
am i right in my decision?
tomorrow we're going to watch ben's concert @ victoria concert hall;
such a coincidence!
ting & mrj also watching too;
we can sit together!
hahas!

things will end;
i know it will;
but one year later how would it be?
Lord, i took my step of faith;
im clinging onto you now;
cos only you will know how weak im on the inside;
only you will know how hurt im on the inside;
though how strong i can seem on the outside;
holy spirit, have more sensitivity towards me;
i need your guidance;

Lord, thank you for keeping me alive;
ting is letting go too;
wad a coincidence;
but same thing, all wad we do is for you;
& you alone;
open another door for us;
you rawks!
i stone;

with love;
yimyim