i dont know how i should feel now;
i know things wont simply end;
because it wouldn't work that way;
after reading jie's blog in the afternoon;
i rushed down to get her a lollipop;
perhaps i hoped too much;
that she would at least smile;
im not sure if she accepted the lollipop;
perhaps it is still there, at her counter;
i did my best;

was simply awkward;
i thought we would at least talk;
we did;
all working business;
but all i know;
i wont wanna end this friendship;
perhaps quarreling make us know each other better;

another wrong step today;
working counter one;
i should be the one clearing the leftovers by customers;
i should be the one shelving it back;
but when the queue was simply that long;
i dare not close the counter;
although at times i wanted to;
a wrong perception of mine;
i did not want to jam the queue at jie's counter;
however, perhaps, jie wouldn't mind the jam but wants the things back;
things worsened, because she was more angry;
'counter one should be the one shelving things back one leh'
i teared;

the greatest victim of all today- the customers;
they had to put up my black face today;
im really sorry about it;
i dont know what to say;
things worsened when i dont have enough 10bucks for change;
but thank Lord that i was still manageable about that;

things all go in the wrong way;
the first outing we quarreled;
although she did not mention anything that day, but i know;
the next outing we did not spend that much time;
because we went our separate ways;
but jie is always there to send me back home;
im afraid of the dark;
this coming outing went haywire;
i got my holidays for the 3 weeks in june;
& yet the chalet did not hit onto it;
instead it was on the last week - my mst week;
i hate this coincidence;
im sorry about that;

i just hope things will get better;
& i believe it will;
perhaps;

im looking forward to tomorrow's class outing;
at least i tried to get off, but to no avail;
tomorrow working BV shift;
i thank Lord for getting that successfully;

Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
you gonna bless things to be alright soon;
im gonna brace my faith up;
working with wanxin tomorrow;
i hope i can make it on time;
YOU RAWKS;
i stone;

with love;
yimyim