hesitated a while;
then decided to update my blog;
today was really damn tiring;
so i might be complaining all my way bahs;
i always try my best to endure;
perhaps it were ot be jesus, he could bahs;
coming to an end of my job in ntuc;
most of the tl knew about the pizza celebration thingy;
i hope it would be a good farewell bahs;
im gonna miss them;
but somehow, i started to slack a lil;
i thought i should give in my best;
but yet i look damn buay song at anything that happens to me;
i didn't get my off say on sunday;
but i fought for bv shift;
just to be able to attend the cell group outreach;
& i did it because lihua gave in to me;
but my parents disallow me to go out on sunday;
because the following monday is the start of my mst week;
perhaps i really do need to turn down the out reach;
i did my best;

darren & i chatted on phone as usual yesterday night;
i thought it shouldn't be that way;
because we're not to be hindering each other's growth spiritually;
we're supposed to keep a distant from each other;
but he also agrees that communication is the best gift both of us ever would received;
there's nothing more we could expect;
because communication is the best tool in a relationship;
but somehow there're stills things i dont see good in him;
it cant be expressed in words;
i need to give in;
im like giving in & out this time around;
i think we should really put down & focus on studies & god for now;
to think that he joked about giving me allowance every month;
i would be glad if he had enough for food himself;
i will let the lord choose the way;

its after ten today;
& customers still come rolling in;
8k with balanced record;
makes my day too;
tomorrow working ch shift;
anybody who can accompany me for lunch at 3pm?
but i think most likely another instant noodle;

thanks Lord for keeping me alive;
bless me with determination for the mst week next week;
you rawks;
i stone;

with love;
yimyim