there, somewhere in my post;
sandy jie mentioned dajiejie loves xiaomeimei :D
gave me enough energy to smile;
i know a frown works more muscles than a smile;
but still, thanks jie;
although both of us know that, we're already that far apart;
but really thankful that her effort is still there;
saying 'love' ain't that hard, moreover typing it out;
but the effort was that & i really appreciated it;
im so looking forward to NTUC rawkers outing!
jie, i know you too, right?

applause for IDEA group!
jerry, jess, eileen, me & the spiritually there rachel;
deep down in my heart, she's still there in this project;
& yes i do miss her dearly;
this is the last project she had with us;
though she's not there to physically present it;
cheers! lets find one day & dine at KFC again alright?!
next project coming up, the product!
i thought the stats result we presented today was alright;
everyone deserves a pat on their heads =Pp

PACC made us lose weight today!
kept shifting around & make up lessons from last week;
i LOVE pacc! seriously!
im getting more used to the module now;
& yes, it really take me some time to adjust to the environment;
& i hoped i really settle down now;

choir was alright today;
at least i managed to speak up to some friends inside;
glad to make new friends, but still need time to adjust;
i tried my best for warm up;
still maintained silent during practices;
choir camp coming up;
pondering if i should go;
apologies to jessica for leaving early today too;
ain't that financially rich to support more things now;
but i dun wish to stretch my hands out to my parents;
Lord, pull me through;
havent gotten the chance to peep into my hp bills;
i feel like smashing my phone on the ground;

didn't have dinner today;
firstly because dear had his dinner himself before i reached;
& secondly i wasn't in a good mood to dine;
nevertheless, i still ask dear to get me my favourite sharkfin's soup from the night market;
had it together in my house just now;
chatted a lil with dear today;
the atmosphere was tense;
i could feel a gap in between;
sometimes, i just want to be alone;
to be independent once again;
i should not pour my expectations onto him;
love is beautiful when both parties accept each other;
learn to love & adapt;
but can i do it?
i ain't sure myself;
next wednesday, our forth month;
i hope things turn out well :D

going to do my pacc tutorial now le!
need to study hard hard hard!
depending on my faith & Lord's strength;
i can do it!

dear Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
sometimes i wish a hug & a hand shake will turn us back into friends again;
it really takes two hands to clap, with my effort alone, it's not gonna work;
perhaps this friendship was initially not cherished;
let things go by itself, let things flow, let me smile;
Lord, bless me with a better tomorrow;
a cheerful & wonderful one;
dear cant make it for the camp :(
YOU RAWKS!
i stone;

with love;
yimyim