im now emoing;
i just want to blog;
i know im at fault;
every blame should have been pushed to me;

laogong's quarreling with his mum again;
this time with such a coincidence;
im on the phone;
perhaps he forgot im on the phone;
but i overhead their conversation;
his mum blaming me having bad influences over him;
i know i should be strong'
because i know he won't want to manage both side;
but am i that strong?
is ky that strong?
strong enough to withstand everything;

suddenly a song kept playing all over in my head;
cry on my shoulder;
& it directs me to the memories i had with another him;
i love this song;
cos i wan someone who can protect to sing this song for me;
i love laogong;
but he's being put in a very difficult position;
yet i can do nothing;

i wanna shut myself down;
i wanna cry my heart out;
i wanna be alone;