forget about me being unwell now;
i just feel like posting today;
too many things happened once in a while;
perhaps today's post would be quite long;
i shouldn't have taken that milo mcflury;
im feeling real uneasy right now;
i may faint anytime;
but no, i had to bring xueting down to the bus stop;
im worried for her;
& she's in the washroom currently;
i just want to start my post (:

as usual, school was a big big emo for me;
i hate myself in school;
perhaps im no longer the old me;
perhaps i just have my 'pms' day you know;
butbutbut!
things changed;
perhaps from today;
i hope from today;

ps: xueting went down alone! im super worried can! but she promised she will sms me until she reaches home. Lord, bless her! alone & away from all those LKK, SHOO!

i took a step of faith;
i spoke to rachel;
speaking to her was really great;
cos i finally let out what i really felt;
& yes, she did taught me alot;
just like the way i wanted to be taught - Christ like;
& yes we did say a prayer of faith;
im at the verge of backsliding now;
but NO! ky will NEVER do that;
rebates on august & i'll end my job;
i hope my faith will carry me til the end;
& i decided that i shall step another step of faith;
by taking the steps to speak to them;
about how i feel;
esp violet, yes, i know i really have to;
cos things are bothering me;
never assume they're not bothered to;
& yes, cos the Lord is always with me;
im returning to my world of the cheerful ky;

& a prayer;
Lord, this time;
friendship really bothers me;
because i love them too much;
i told myself to hate them;
so that i would not be hurt;
but no, i could not bring myself to;
everyone is my friend;
its just that perhaps violet is the closer one to me;
& now i really felt an emptiness inside of me;
its really affecting my studies;
Lord, i wanna pray that as time goes by;
we will understand each other better;
take away my hot temper;
it is doing nothing good to me;
Lord, bless that we could have more time fellowshipping with one another;
have more girls talk;
& don't let one failure take away my determination of the brand new me 08;
it is still 2008;
& i can still change;
im gonna slim down;
& gonna have new hair cut;
im gonna be the best that i can be;
i will no longer be the man woman that i used to call myself;
im a genuine woman;
Lord, i pray that nothing's gonna be dug out once things settled;
bless MCG girls;
you can take a lil blessings away from me to bless them;
everyone's happy makes me happy too (:
& you gonna bless that! amen!

thanks rachel at this point of time;
really appreciate it (:

met up with dear today;
2 good news!
let me start with one first;
saw jie & wanxin;
i finally remember to pass jie her neos taken with kor;
one more thing done for jie made me so happy!
finally managed to get mother's day present for dear's mum!
i wanna write her a card!
i really want to know his parents more;
cos i really wanna be with him always! (:
thanks Lord for blessings & ideas;
2nd good news;
OMFG! ITS FATE!
no matter how hard dear shuns me away from his parents;
-i know he is protecting me-
but today, i saw his parents when im with my parents!
i said hello to his dad when he sees me;
because only he recognises me;
& his dad told his mum im darren's gf luh -.-
&& i managed to speak to her!
i introduced my parents to his parents;
thou it was like not at a very formal place;
they both shook hands & smiled;
& i chatted with his mum a lil bit;
it isn't that hard to communicate with her;
i got another mother! cos its dear's mum!
when we finally bid goodbye;
my dad was like - im not in my best suit to meet them;
my mum was like - my hand so rough, wonder will she mind;
den i kept laughing lahs!
cos i didn't manage to introduce darren properly to my family members;
but i simply love my xiaoqiang!
DARREN OKQ~ wo ai ni (:
Lord, bless us with fruitful things ahead;
AMEN!

transfered money to the supplier's account;
i bought a slimming medicine;
whether it is harmful or not;
i decided to give it a try;
i hope i will be alright (:
Lord, protect me from all harms;
even when im trying this product;

thanks xueting (:
had a heart to heart talk with her;
when kc came & kacau us luh!
den i said ting was my another 'dear'
made me kept laughing non stop;
anw i saw ting online le;
she's back home safe i guess;

my head spinning too badly now;
Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
keep the faith in me as i speak to the MCG;
bless me with knowledge to complete my module;
i will pass & never flung;
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim