today was systematic;
morning went to gym;
too many peeps using the facilities;
so i went off after an hour and a half;
felt really sucky;
saw netballers training at the gym;
i feel like going to the past;
saw my trainer;
but i think he doesn't recognise me anymore;
people keep staring at me;
cos i think im the only person with dyed hair;

went home without taking a shower in the gym;
felt that i din work out that much;
taking a shower wasn't necessary;
played audi;
& i got a new audi dear le - lupy;
in real lyfe he looked beng wors;
i just hope that he wun condemn me that's all;
smiles;
thanks joey for helping me finish that idiotic mission;

slept for a while;
rolling laogong going malaysia;
think she reached le bahs;
must be sleeping le;

working was alright;
just that i hate people changing my schedule without letting me know;
im also conscious about my own schedule de;
it's not lyk im not aware about anything;
saw a new GMS working since im working upstairs;
bringing YC for interview soon;
saw 2 gals approaching me to find work;
& i brought them to the office;
i din know about the outcome;
somehow deep inside me;
i dun feel lyk leaving;
jie & i din talked that much initially;
but we did talk quite a bit towards the end;
manage to get a balance report with 6k;
today is quiet & i hope tomorrow wun be tiring;

received laogong's sms stating that his mum wants to meet me;
& i go ohmytian once again;
since she initiates the move;
i think somehow deep inside her she might already accepted me;
i hope that we can communicate well;
since ben says that it's not a problem;
monday's dressing will be very 'girl' in a sense;
i will try my best (:
for laogong's sake LOL!

first ever time i see ben so down;
he sent me home today;
he accompanied me have my 'dinner' too;
& he paid for it too;
returning him when i receive my next pay;
thanks dude! owe you one;
im gonna survive on instant noodle le!
going to confiscate my own card;
until i stabilize my own savings;
GOSH!
tell me that ky hates shopping!

working in the morning tomorrow;
i hope everything goes right;
*praying hard*
i just wanna do my best;
& God will do the rest;

Lord, thanks for keeping me alive today once again;
fix my mindset about the CCA;
i like dancing, however, its violet's ONLY passion;
i dun wanna make it lyk im copying her or anything;
let me be myself;
please guide the way;
for if i cant cope well, i will just change into another CCA;
let it be like this for now;
bless me with a wonderful & cheerful tomorrow;
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim