today was a sucky day i guess;
thou laughters in the end;
i just wanna start my post today saying how sucky it was;

the train was as crowded;
at least i wasn't late meeting jas up today;
got one fat woman, i had to say this im sorry;
sweaty body & clothes squeezed into the MRT cabin;
& she got a space to stand in front of me;
while this guailan malay guy directly behind me;
keep landing on me FLAT;
his WHOLE body alright?
den i had no choice but to move towards that FAT lady;
& yet he kept taking the advantages of the space infront & land on me again;
until we reaches another station;
then saw a damn F**king idiotic person who grab onto the handle while knocking onto my specs;
yes im short;
but she can damn F**king apologise de right;
& yet she didn't
IM SO DAMN FREAKING PISSED EARLY IN THE MORNING;

off to school;
lectures & tutorials were quite alright;
& its the first ever time i slept during ECONS!
i was damn angry with myself;
but its over anyway;
i just know i will do my best to brush up my studies;
no more too much slackings;

today is tuesday;
& its suppose tuh be the MCG day;
& yet things did not turn out well;
we decided to go to HV for lunch before setting off to raffles;
& yet their service attitude sucks lyk dunnoe wad;
CRYSTAL JADE sucks!
& jessica said she will bring us to suntec;
in which their services are better;
NO CRYSTAL JADE IN HV MAN;
they should seriously send their damn idiotic people for customers' service training;
seriously hate it;

saw this auntie in which violet explained her situation to us;
decided to help by buying the candy from her;
yet we did not take a bite;
i felt sorry but its just the money we wanted to give her;
& not to hurt her ego, we had to purchase something from her;
i hope she would understand (:

was more than disappointed than angry;
when the MCGs wasn't informed at least somehow earlier;
that ten & jas were leaving earlier;
for whatever reason they have;
& im alone once again;
i felt useless;
KY was once independence;
& she isn't;
i wanna built a sense of independence in me;
i don't wanna be reliance on anybody;
the more be it my new poly friends;
& as usual i did not speak when im angry or sad;
so i ignored jessica by her questions;
but when i heard them wanna purchase things;
i just need to do something to keep my mind off from thoughts;
at least something i wanna do that will cheer me up - to help others;
perhaps it shows i have the ability to do so bahs;
but it enraged violet this time;
saying aloud that im stubborn perhaps woke me up to my senses;
but it too hurts alot;
i threw the plaster i bought for violet straight down into the rubbish bin;
& at least jessica accepted the strepsils;

moments of awkward silence;
i know its all my fault;
i took a step of faith & apologised;
at least i did (:

had fun with nick & jerry;
accompanied with maoce fwen - eileen;
at least jokes & laughter begin again;
when jessica got TRICKED;
was laughing my ass out seriously;
not laughing at her directly;
but laughing at the whole picture that i see in them;

topped up my 77th street card;
im glad (:

journey home alone once again;
tomorrow will be the same;
appreciated violet's effort in wanting to take the train;
at least to keep me accompanied before they alight at outram park;
was so sad to bid goodbye to friends you know;
but i was too surprised that jeremy did not accompany them;
at least someone was there to keep me accompanied for one station;
its enough, it really is;
was sneezing all the way home in train;
& yes im down with sore throat & flu;
a lil cough coming up;
i hope i will be alright tomorrow;
cos i still wan to accompany jas to school tomorrow;
even if i cant make it into lessons;
perhaps still accompanying her to dover bahs;
that's the least i can do (:
we'll see how it goes tomorrow;

im keeping the faith up in me;
treating others the way i wan others to treat me;

but i was too much of a surprised that i see yusheng!
was so glad that he approaches me!
thanks dude;
someone was there to keep me accompanied for three stations!
& that really is enough;
i hope to see him soon in CG & services again;
praise the Lord! AMEN!

journey home was really long;

wanted to jio jas down for dinner;
but she could not make it;

so surprised that rolling laogong came to my house!
im not alone;
im touched!
we had a lil bit of girls' talk;
i hope it really bring our bond closer;
she's at the stage of whether she should accept him not;
rolling laogong ar, bring me another MR MR rolling laogong leh!
jiayou!
no matter what, you have my support!

FRIDAY SLOT IS BOOKED PURELY, FIRSTLY & LASTLY FOR;
WENJIE!
touched bah!
i hope rolling laogong is coming along too!

whenever i think that laogong & i could finally meet up tomorrow;
i cant help but feel a sense of excitement;
i hope the new specs will suit him well;
getting our photo tomorrow hopefully;
& hopefully i can post it up too!
laopo LOVES laogong;

for sandy jie;
cheers alright?
you're NOT alone;
believe in yourself;
i don't know how you manage to dig that photo out;
perhaps you already saved it long ago;
but trusting is always so important;
no matter what happens;
dajiejie will always have xiaomei's support;
if dagege no time accompany you for lunch or dinner;
or u dont wanna be alone;
just sms me;
jiayou dajiejie!

Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
im so looking forward to the dance club;
starting on my hmwk soon!
i hope i do understand;
Lord, bless me with speedy recovery;
heal me miraculously;
for with you, i need no earthly doctors;
bless me with a cheerful tomorrow;
i guess im doing my work in school while waiting for laogong to end his lesson;
jiayou all the way!
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim