rolling's leg back from camp;
hit til lyk tt luh;
so clever & pro!
poor rolling laogong!

today another moodless day for me;
things dont turn out well;
so i guess, im starting to lose faith;
in any areas im down in;

firstly, dear din sms me in the morning;
was expecting his sms in the morning as usual;
was kinda down on mood already;
had to drag my feet to work today;
today's work was really tiring;
from counter 11 to counter 4;
back to counter 11 than to counter 5;
den finally home;
today's nets hit my top record luh;
4 sets of nets settlement i had;
but i was happy;
at least jie smiled at me when i first saw her;
xiaomei LOVE dajiejie;

when it was knock off hours;
expected dear to come fetch me home as usual;
cos he said that when he's not working anymore;
he'll do his part to keep me accompanied whenever he can;
but he din turn up;
when jie saw the disappointment in me;
she called dear;
but i expected the result;
so i din wait for her to finish talking;
i dashed out;


well.
at least rolling laogong is there for me today;
accompanied me home;
accompanied me to play audi;
then finished the wood pieces left;
that i wanted dear to finish for me;
whenever i need him;
he wasn't there;
i dun hate him;
because i hate myself;

tomorrow i cant turn up for CG;
cos of my parents again;
whenever i think about the time that i wan to step up;
& talk tuh them;
& tell them about CHC;
i feel too much of a pressure upon me;
i cant bring myself to;
now im struggling with work, studies & serving God;
of course, putting God in the first place;
but i wonder how much faith i really have now;

planned well for both works & Cg & services;
now all plans are ruined;
i guess im getting too spiritually down;
but what mikki said was right;
think about the initial time i have with God that made me persevered til now;
everything of Him is worth persevering;
thanks mikki for calling & speaking to me;
i guess im turning into her;
but i haven found my right solution;
once a Christian, always a Christian;

too much disappointment already;

my sister was disappointed too;
i guess bea mei felt that too;
WSSS din not win Gold, neither did they win Gold with Honours;
everyone's effort to make things happened;
the sweat & the pain;
the time & money spent;
guessed are all gone down to waste;

i seriously hate it when things come all at the same time;

i guess im quitting NTUC soon;
i dun wanna be a burden out ofta my parents;
but i guess that's the way;
God will never fail his words;
for this time;
i guess i choose him;
i hope im right;

quitting job means alot;
i will miss jie & kor & the ntuc rawkers alot!
cos i really love them alot;
esp sandy jie;
i dunnoe wad's gonna happen next;
i dun wanna lose them;

but i will have much more time with Lord;
no more rushing to CG & services;
enjoying everyday;
with the Lord & dear i guess;
if we could meet up that often;
im at lost, Lord please guide me;
the crucial decision that im about to decide & do;
i need your help;
Holy Spirit please guide me;
let me know which to choose;

i guess im tired physically & mentally bahs;
i wanna rest;
i need rest;
Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
make your words so true;
i still wanna pray for a better tomorrow;
a new prayer list coming up in my blog;
jiayou!
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim