im done with dinner;
too bloated;
had too many meals today;
appetite was just there;
i wonder why;
i miss laogong every now & then;
but when we were together;
i didn't seem to be like this at all;
i wonder why;

met with laogong today;
initial plan was to accompany him to take his new specs;
take a pic of us;
& head to his house for dinner;
however, non was achieved;
im feeling so moody right now;

laogong cried yesterday;
his mum slammed his psp onto the ground;
as usual they quarreled again;
i really hate it when both of them quarreled;
is being with him wrong?
im beginning to doubt myself;
his parents found out about our ring;
because his mum always update his account book;
realised that he spent too much money;
he tries to hide it from his mum by saying he lent his friend that sum of money;
but it's being too obviously exposed;
i think im selfish myself;
shouldn't have expected too much out of him;
he is after all a young boy;
who needs shelter from home, care & concern;
im beginning to feel tired;
i've yet to meet his parents officially;
i know my image was tarnished deep in their parents' heart;
im nothing;
i should hold on;
im tired;
i should understand;
i cant do anything;
move in or out?
Lord, decide for me;

school was alright today;
not much conversation between the girls;
both jessica & i were down with sore throat;
communicating with them via typing of sms;
thanks jessica & nick for the pill;
though im not recovered still;
im glad & thankful someone was there;
jas knew i hate being alone;
& i was too glad that she accompanied me til rachel come to find me;
purchased statistic book via jas too;
was alone when i was on my way home;
asked laogong to get his specs himself;
dun have energy to accompany him down;
saw bowen's sms;
& he offered to help carry my lappy & accompany me to BPP;
i was lyk.. stunned!
cos whenever im alone;
God sends his people down to keep me accompanied;
it might be short - like yesterday;
it might be long - like today;
but God never fails;
im really thankful;
thanks bowen!
for your effort, chats & sweat!

did POA tutorials;
bought some coloured pens & a new hole puncher;
i hope im ready for more challenges;
i hope to excel in dance too;
thanks bowen for the support;

Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
let me do some more work;
keep the perseverance & determination in me;
for i rely on you purely;
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim