let it be dead bahs;
who will really care;
alot of things happened;
i jus wanna share;
firstly;
my guildmate happens to be in brotherhood too;
which obviously & directly reminds me of jer mummy;
i really miss her too much;
i guess im being really & seriously selfish;
& saying all these now would not be of any help;
she no longer calls me;
we no longer chat on the phone lyk we used to;
calling me perhaps made her bills as high as over hundreds dollar;
i miss jer mummy;
thou she din say anything about this friendship;
i know deep down in her heart she cares;
if not, she wun even bother taking cab down jus to look for me;
when i quarrel with xue nuer;
she's always the first one to ring me;
to console me;
to ask about & talk with me;
she's always there;
i wanna be real lyfe friends with her;
thou i know maple is jus so unrealistic;
i know mummy wun see it;
but mummy, thanks for giving in to me so much;
i hope you would still bother me as a nuer;
i hope someday over the streets we'll still meet up;
i hope i will still recognise you;
your face always printed on my mind;
jiayou in your lyfe!
nuer LOVES mummy;
outing on the 27th wasn't that well;
was in the midst of my stomach problem & that day was chaotic for me;
adding on tuh dizziness;
make me feel lyk hell;
guess that day wasn't me alone feeling so bad;
i din know jie was angry with me;
but from wadever she acted it was too obvious;
i was really feeling so down i fretted my temper on dear;
when they wanted to cross the road i wanted to climb the overhead bridge;
i feel lyk jus going off lyk that;
which i almost did when they took pictures;
but what made me stayed was when i heard jie calling me;
it stopped my movement & gave me a second thought;
this is the first tyme jie was duper angry with me;
we din quarrel but we had cold war;
i did my part on the second day to get her chocolate ice blended & hersley;
i thought it did cheer her up;
xiaomei LOVES dajiejie;
feeling so sick over this week;
parents restricted me out cos of that;
i din attend CG neither did i attend service;
i felt too stressed too pressurized;
sometimes i wanna let go of this responsibility;
of being a Christian;
sometimes i jus wanna backslide;
be a backslider;
should i let go?
CGM dun understand;
even xin & sam i guess;
no matter wad;
ky LOVES Jesus;
dear was unwell ytd;
& todae he got himself a mc;
tomorrow he's still working;
im worried for him;
get to know that his parents thrashed his house phone;
& now we can only sms;
its the first tyme i ever go through such kinda thingy;
i doubt i printed good impression of myself in their parent's thought;
i may not be their ideal choice;
who says loves jus bother 2 person;
jus involve 2 person;
jus matters to 2 person?
why cant his parents accept for who i am;
lyk my parents accept him for who he is?
no one is perfect;
& definitely, im not perfect;
im suffocating;
i need to take a breather;
i know dear will always be by my side;
get well soon;
dear LOVES dear;
today was the first ever tyme i worked side by side with jie;
others was not considered;
i looked forward to it;
that's why i endured pain when i reached BPP;
& i smiled;
cos i know Lord will always make me well;
Holy Spirit will always guide me;
thanks Lord & Holy Spirit;
i managed to go through today;
felt so empty;
when i was being told that jie might not work side by side with me;
& yet the technician was just in tyme;
so jie was side by side with me in the end;
had fun todae;
jie so xiao hai zi de lahs;
firstly, jumped til lyk mad when i finally found the memory card slot for the digi cam;
so it made her save the money to wash the photo inside it;
secondly, she dunnoe how to tie boxes of goods for the customers;
so xiaomei had tuh come tuh her rescue;
thirdly, she behaves lyk a pregnant women having pre-natal illness;
suddenly so psycho with my sour plums;
another second psycho with the new McFlurry with milo;
i really dunnoe wad to say about her;
but had fun todae;
kept exchanging money;
& i din have a balance record;
instead jie has it;
after tomorrow's training;
we're working side by side once again on tuesday;
i wonder wad will happen;
no matter how things goes;
xiaomei still LOVES dajiejie;
& grats in advance jie for your new nokia phone :D
Lord, thanks for keeping me alive;
take emoness away;
take stresses away;
take all illness dear & i possess away;
heal us both miraculously;
cos i know when there's salavation, there's healing;
& we will be healed;
bless me with a cheerful & better tomorrow;
smiling is the key;
XD!
U RAWKS!
i stone;
signing off;
yimyim
replies tuh taggies:
ling: thanks for visiting! i will get well soon! :D
xueting: ting! thanks! love you loads! & welcome you tuh our world of Christ & the family of W426!
darren: dear! i updated! get well sooooooooon =Pp
passer-by: hahas! do leave down ur blog add or fwenster so tt we can be fwens too! are you my junior? greenridge tuh me was lyk 5 yrs back? whoa. hahas!