& im back from supper;
todae was really so down;
cos jie wasn't there at mac with us;
sotong wasn't there as well;
there was only ben, rolling laogong, seetho, me & ee theng;
todae's work was super boringgg can?
i really almost fell asleep;
it was sundae thou im working upstairs;
& i only earned 5k;
balance record thou;
perhaps did cheer me up a lil;

was emo;
first tyme saw jie came into the office alone;
& yet i just stared at her & did not open my mouth tuh talk tuh her;
things changed;
& i can feel it too;
my heart moved a lil;
cos im sad;
but i did start to talk tuh her;
i kicked her onto her shoe;
i smsed her my feeling;
cos i do not have the courage to speak tuh her face tuh face;
i know if she were tuh reply otherwise;
tears will stream down my cheek;
i hope that im not alone;
i hope that im not in the middle;
& yet im feeling lyk this down;
i dun side dear, neither do i side jie;
but i hope we all are still the NTUC rawkers;
if dear & jie would tuh be lyk this;
going on lyk this forever;
i will choose none;
i will be myself alone;
once a loner, always a loner*
i still have the Lord;
jie promised;
we'll be sisters forever;
i'll keep that in my heart;

& i missed mummy's call once again;
cos im working when she called;
mummy, im sorry once again;
if you were tuh be here & see this;
you will always be my mummy;
im sad now;
mummy, pls call me lyk you used tuh;
& console me;
& cheer me up;

tomorrow working CH;
Lord, bless that it would be another beautiful day;
bless dear & ee theng tuh grow spiritually stronger;
with you, they can;

& i think i saw wanting at mac;
her hair shorter liao;
think its her;
but i did not buck up the courage tuh go up tuh her;
hope that she's still alright;
saw her & a sudden flash back;
when i was in sec one when i first knew her;
wanting, no matter what, you mus jiayou!
thou you'll not see this *

thanks Lord for keeping me alive;
bless me with a better tomorrow;
a peaceful yet cheerful one;
take away my emoness;
resolve everything;
for with you, nothing is impossible;
Lord, i jus wanna call by ur name;
you'll always be my Lord;
U RAWKS!
i stone;

signing off;
yimyim