im back from seeing meiyen til she reaches bus stop from plaza;
went down tuh get stuffs;
saw jie & she's really not in a good mood;
but at least still i see a smile when i asked her too;
dunnoe wad darren did that make jie so angry luh;
but so nan de can be side by side with darren lors;
not much customers also;
& yes! im given off tomorrow again;
bringing my fone tuh service & will be busy blogging too;
finally getting back tuh my old style;

now getting in a very confuse mode;
total confusion;
im being posted tuh Singapore Poly;
Business Administration;
it is a good course;
something in line for wad i desire for;
but im really disappointed when i din get posted tuh Ngee Ann;
i cant appeal for the couse i wanted cos its already full;
2 more choices for me;
Business It & Social Enterprise in NP;
or jus sticking tuh SP;
i admit that im tempted tuh get into NP;
cos most of my fwens are dere;
if i were tuh be in SP;
im really alone;
i dun wanna stuck in sch no whr in the first dae;
i dun wanna eat alone;
i dun wanna go sch & go home alone;
im REALLY afraid of being alone;
Lord, can you speak tuh me at this moment?
tell me which is my heart's desire;
tell me which is the place you wan me tuh get in;
Lord, shud i appeal for NP?
i really dunnoe wad tuh do now;
i wanna speak tuh someone who can help me;
Lord, pls save me!
hear my scream & pain please;

so disappointed;
darren & i would be in different school if im styaing in SP;
jie going bishan ITE;
wanxin in simei ITE;
rolling & samsam in NP;
xin shud be in RP;
she's alone too;
perhaps;
i really feel lyk crying now!
SAVE ME LORD!

Lord, please talk tuh me;
Holy Spirit please touch me gently;
tell me what tuh do, where tuh go;
give me clue tuh find the answer you desire, you planned;
please save me!